In a Fog

Sometimes in life things can seem as though we are in a fog. The things in our life appear out of focus and it can feel as though there will never be clarity.

I've been married to Jon for over 30 years.

He was the first person that I actually fell in love with enough to want to get married. 

I had dated a number of successful and great guys before dating him,  but it was Jon that my heart felt something different from anyone else.  

Without getting into too much detail, I was (and still am 😉) 12 years younger than him.  So when we both were younger the age difference seemed like it was a hurtle too big to jump over when deciding to get married. So we broke up.

I remember I felt so helpless.  I was in love for the first time at age 19 but it looked like it wasn't going to work out because Jon was wanting to avoid controversy (I didn't really care about controversy, my mentality was "deal with it people!" 😂).  

But as it stood, we were done.  It was over. I was in a fog.  So much unclarity.  Nothing was clear.

Why did it look like my life was heading in such a fun and exciting direction only for it all to fall apart?

I remember praying during that season, "Father, please either take these feelings away or make it work out..."  I prayed that over and over again. 

Like I said at the beginning of this post... "I've been married to Jon for over 30 years." 

It's pretty clear, God made it work out.  Even when humanly speaking it looked impossible.  

There has not been a day go by that Jon hasn't made me feel beautiful. 

God is faithful.  When things feel hopeless and impossible, God always always comes through.  He is a good good Father.  He has been so very faithful to me! 

This is just a bit of my story.  

You may not feel like you have a story yet. Keep walking with God and never give up, and you will. 

But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you...”
— 2 Thessalonians 3:3